So what has been going on this 3 weeks? Well, it was a hectic one!
Firstly, I actually rejected my job offer for the first time.
Yes, you didn't read it wrongly. I actually rejected my second job offer of my life for the very first time.
I don't exactly know if it's something to be proud of but hey, I actually didn't regret rejecting it.
Learning from the previous lesson, I actually got really careful about sharing my plans, news or any plans that I had with anyone. Unless until it's really confirmed and worth sharing. I don't want to end up disappointing people around me and myself again(like how i previously did).
The previous time? I was in a dilemma you know. People telling me all sorts of things and even making the decision for me then convincing me to understand where they're coming from then agree with their decision (woah, it's a mouthful. You get my point).
So what did most of the people I shared the previous job offer told me? Yeap you guessed it:
Accept it! WHY NOT? Never try never know. You are jobless now anyway.
This time, I only share it with my mum, because I was in such a dilemma again. To venture into a field/sector that will bring me good prospect or continue looking for what I want. I really regretted sharing in the end because its the same old words.
Never try never know. Bring you good money? So why not?
This time, I listened to my inner voice and followed my guts feeling. To reject politely. Even though it might bring me good prospect or good money for the time being... it's not what I want. It's not where I want to apply my skills at. I don't want to accept it for the sake of convenience and for the short term monetary reward as I know I am bound to regret it at the end of the day.
Did i regret it now? Nope. Not at all. I know I will have problem settling down or even expressing myself freely/creatively (even though my position will be graphic designer but trust me, the company have no respect for creative) and I will be going back to the starting line again. Been low self-esteem, doubtful of myself and etc. I had enough and is mature enough to reject politely.
Come to think of it, I actually am proud of myself, to listen to my inner voice this time and knowing what's best for me.
So after this whole dilemma, I had the opportunity to meet a very young entrepreneur from NUS. His company is interested in looking for someone with the passion for creative and photography. The lucky thing is, I am actually shortlisted as he finds me a fit for the position. He is totally different from all the people I have met during multiple interviews. He listens to what I want, my concerns and believes I have what it takes to excel in this field.
The feeling of having a stranger telling you that he loves your work and placing all his trust in your expertise during the first meeting? Priceless.
It gave me the motivation and push, knowing that, hey, maybe what I have thought myself to be all this while is right. This guy even offered me a event shoot on the spot. A launch party for the company taking place the following week. I accepted immediately. With confidence and and trust in myself this time. It ignites my passion and drive once again. Something I have not felt for the longest time.
It's a wonder how things have changed. From ORD-ing from army on November 2015, searching frantically for a job on December 2015, landing my first job on January, depressing February (I have a post about it but I'm not gonna share!) to March, where I found myself again.
I really hope this passion and drive will go on, to bring me to places where I truly wanna be.
The moral of the story? Listen to your inner voice, you know what you yourself want best. People are going to advice you based on their value of life, which often differs from yours. So why bother what other people are going to think or say when everyone have different views and values of what we are suppose to do with our time (that doesn't mean you can waste it away!).
That's how your future self will thank the present you, just like how I am thanking the past me for rejecting a tempting job offer now.
Now the question for you (if there's any reader):
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